Faith in Action
Hebrews 11:1 now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.
Hebrews 11: 11 and by faith even Sarah, who was past childbearing age, was enabled to bear children because she considered him faithful who had made the promise.
Oh my goodness!! I was just about to write about faith on a totally different thought pattern and then something amazingly awesome just happened!!
Ok, so for the last 2-1/2 years, I have consistently seen the number 11. Now I’m not trying to be weird or anything, I will look at the clock and see either 1:11 or 11:11. It kind of became the underlying joke in our family and so we would text the time back and forth or have that a-ha moment when we would randomly see the numbers and glance a look at each other.
At first, I thought that was a coincidence and then realized this was happening too much to be random so I asked my Pastor what the significance of 11 was in scripture. He said it was the completion of promises to come. Now at the time I thought ok, great, God’s promises are true and He does not waiver from His word, so I had hope in that.
Well this started about three weeks after we had lost my brother in law in a tragedy, and then two weeks later my best friend’s husband died in another tragedy and at that moment, I really can say I don’t think we had the realization of what had all just transpired. It was deep, confusing, painful, and just wrong, but it just did not all seem real and so at that point, I took it lightly that God’s promises were true.
We have come through an insane rollercoaster of emotions over the last 2 and 1/2 years. I have never in my life had to fight so hard for my husband and me to keep our heads above ground.
I have lived day in and day out with 3 grieving people while carrying the heaviness of the loss of two very special people so close to me. At first I thought I was strong, but over the years I have honestly felt defeated, beat up, discouraged, sad, mad, confused and at points hopeless.
Although I fought EVERY day for the peace of God and chased after Him as my only source, I’d be a fool to say that there were not days of falling into the rut of deep heaviness. I could ONLY turn my eyes to Jesus and cry out for His mercy and hope…
HE HAS ALWAYS BEEN HERE WITH ME and HE is the only one that has given me strength to press on. HE is the only reason I have gotten through any and all of this and honestly I have in the midst of my frustration over and over had to repent for my fleshly responses in some situations.
I would ask God for forgiveness for my frustration and find the “plumb Line” to focus on rather than my surroundings. I have physically been affected, mentally felt weaker, yet always kept referring to my faith in God and the hope of His Promises.
It really was all I have had to hold on to and at times reminding God (like he forgot) and me that He doesn’t waiver from His word therefore these promises have to come.
Today as I write I am in the midst of fighting yet another crazy storm as a result of this loss. The residue of anger and rage, confusion, and still unanswered questions, all targeted in the wrong directions. However my God does not waiver, His promises are true and I stand on my faith that is my steadfast and only hope…
So I have to say I just had the revelation of the scriptures above as I typed them down to share… 11:1, 11:11 BOTH speak to our faith and confidence in that which we cannot see, but hope for will come to be!!!
Oh GOD thank you that you see me, that you know my faith has not wavered and I rest in the promises that we will have peace, joy, hope, love and restoration and we will have victory AGAINST OUR ENEMY!
Bless you, Candra